Explanation

Man, had I thought of this?!?
No.
Not even in my wildest dream did I think that I will be giving out an explanation and that too on just a bloody vision I had. But now coming to think of it this is what I've been doing all my life.Giving out explanations about things I've done,haven't done or am about to do---everything.
Trying,in vain,all my life to explain small things such as---why I could never pass in geography...why I have to sleep alone at night...why I don't go to funerals...why I'm so indecisive and why...Why at all did I become myself?
Explaining,justifying,reasoning---rather trying to do all of these together and then getting fatigued and wondering---Why do I even try at all? But then I remember I do all this because someone had explained something called Optimism to me at the very start of life.



P.S:I missed the main reason I wrote all this stuff...visions are merely visions...better put as hallucinations.